What would I say if we were face to face, if I was with you and not here in this place.
I wonder if I would open up right away or would I wait to see what you might say.
Somehow I know you would only stare with loving eyes and a sweet smile on your face, waiting for me to share what is already written on my face.
I must say I am a little uneasy and not quite sure where to start, so here I go I am just going to share my heart.
For years I felt empty and alone was roaming around the world for what I did not know.
I had made many decisions on this journey called life all of which caused me only heartache and strife.
I married young and turned to alcohol shortly after.
For 19 years my life was a total disaster just could not grasp hold of happily ever after.
When I had flopped around in the cesspools of life were I nearly took my own life.
It is only when I hit bottom that I finally looked up out of darkness and despair only to find that you had always been there.
You stood beside me patient and true just waiting for the day that I realized that I needed you.
You had not stepped in when I was stubborn and self-willed not caring about anyone or if I was killed.
You waited until I was broken and at the end of myself down on my knees crying for a relief.
It is then that you cleared my sight and I finally saw you that night, I saw how wrong I had been and that you could make it all right, I really started living that night.
Has everything been roses and rainbows has life only been full of ups and no downs, has the devil took his temptations and stopped hanging around?
No, that is not the case, but now I can stand firm and look him in the face, confident that I am not alone or out of place for with you I now have a permanent place.
So to you I am more grateful then this fleshly body could ever show, for you are the greatest love that I have ever known.
You are my Blessed Savior who sits on His throne, saving a place for me in my Heavenly home.
Thank you Jesus for making me one of your own.
