Mom

Mom, a word that can melt even the toughest of hearts. Life givers, care givers, love givers, and the only one we long for as children. We always want our moms, it is on her we call for all emotions and needs. And the magic of a mom is that she never changes in our lives, we will always need her no matter how old we get or how independent, she will be the one we long for all our lives.
I don't think we ever truly grasp the magnitude of our need for our mom until she is gone. When she is truly out of our reach and no longer accessible by any means, we are left with the brutal truth of how much we have needed our mom. It at then that the longing and loneliness weighs in on us as a great weight that threatens to bring us down. We are so unprepared to face life without the loving presence of our mother that it causes a panic way down deep inside us to boil up and out of control before we can get a handle on it. It is the biggest blind side I think we will ever be a part of.
There is a part of us that dies with our mom, a part of us that we can never access again. The part of us that is the wide eyed child full of wonder and fear that can only be soothed and reassured by our mom. We loss the means to comfort that part of who we are, handicapped is the emotional child that lives within us.
My own experience in this loss has been that just when I think I have learned to coupe with the part of me that has no mom anymore, it once again boils up into an emotional storm that tears through my heart and mind leaving me tired and disoriented and oh so alone. It is as if we grieve for the loss over and over throughout the rest of our lives, never having the child within us comforted again.
In losing my mom I have experience what it is to loss something so precious that it can not be replaced or forgotten. I don't think we move on, or get over this loss, we must just find a way to endure it as best as we can. The child within us will always cry out for mom, but after losing her there will be no answer and no comfort. We will have to learn to move on in life without the very thing the child within us longs for.
Treasure every moment you have with your mom, for one day the memories of those times will be all that the enter child has to hold onto.